The Bittersweet Season Begins Again

I just opened my admin panel to make a quick post and found this notification from WordPress waiting for me:

Happy Anniversary! You registered on WordPress.com 2 years ago! Thanks for flying with us. Keep up the good blogging!

I can hardly believe all of the unexpected and heartbreaking events that have taken place in the past two years, but through it all, I have My Sweetheart and I feel like our love grows more and more every day. Two years ago I wouldn’t have expected to be saying that now. Maybe that’s just proof that everything really does happen for a reason. {sad smile}

Anyway… I am here to make a quick post about the upcoming holiday season, which is always so difficult for me. If you’ve read this blog from the beginning, you know that I lost my grandparents a year apart at this time of year over a decade ago and have seen very little of my natural family since then. My Sweetheart is known to say that when we grow up, our family becomes more about the people we choose to have in our lives. I agree with that philosophy more and more, but in the past year (or two) the list of those we call family is shorter and shorter. Last year we lost two members of our closest family, our friend Pam and our Diggity Dog, exactly one month apart, and those wounds are still very fresh today. Almost everyone else we have come to know and love and trust as family have pruned themselves from our chosen family tree by one form or another of deceit or devious behavior. With so few friends to call on this year, my favorite aspect of the holidays is going to be a bit tricky.

THAT is what I was going to post about… My favorite thing about the holiday season is cooking for the people I love. Every year, My Sweetheart and I put out an open invitation to everyone we know to join us for a traditional Thanksgiving dinner. I don’t think that’s going to happen this year. Instead, we have decided that we aren’t even going to celebrate on the same day as the rest of the country. This year, we will be celebrating one day early. We lost our Diggity Dog on the day before Thanksgiving last year, so we are going to celebrate that little dog and everything else for which we are thankful on the anniversary of his passing. (Yes, I know that the date won’t be the same, but it’s the significance of the *day* that means something to us.)

And, just because we aren’t going to expect to feed a family the size of an army, don’t think I won’t be cooking up a feast. I’m already looking for a couple of new recipes to include in this year’s menu on Food.com. I’ve been a member of the site since it was called RecipeZaar.

RecipeZaar founding member banner

My username there is “LoveToCookHateToClean,” so if you have a recipe to help brighten our season a little bit, let me know in the comments here or find me in the community pages there. I love learning new dishes for My Sweetheart.

Are the holidays a difficult time for you, too? Share your coping strategy in the comments. I need all the help I can get.

Stuck?

Something is amiss in my corner of WordPress.com. I’m having trouble posting as often as I would like to post. It isn’t lack of inspiration that is preventing me from posting; I have a little leather-bound notebook I carry everywhere and write lots of ideas that I want to write about. I am just having trouble with the flow of blogging…

When I have an idea, I lack photos of the project which is the subject of the idea. When I do have the photos I want for the post, I don’t have time to stylized them to have the “feel” I want them to have, upload them, tag, title, caption and describe them for publication and write the post. The final result of my blogging inspiration ends up something like selecting the photos I want to use and getting them ready to post and “running out of time to write” so I go surf through the blogs I follow instead because I enjoy it.

I would really like to post something here daily, but I am falling short of that goal. Then I feel guilty for not posting every day I don’t post. I feel guilty to the point that I don’t even comment on the blogs I follow because I am afraid that someone who might follow repurposedKATE if it appeared to be active may click-through my comment and see that I haven’t posted in EIGHT days! I am not sure how to get over this hump and let my workflow, well… flow.

I get the feeling that I’m not alone in this muck, either. My favorite reads are either openly expressing the same discomfort or I am sensing it when I visit their posts.

No, that’s not true. Not all of my favorite blogs are winding down, Home Sweet Here is a posting powerhouse demonstrating substantial posts with plentiful photos about 5 times every week! How is this possible?!! Another favorite who isn’t slowing down is Janey’s Room. There was a lull over there before the first of the year, but it seems that activity is on the upswing now. Clearly, these two are not to be counted among the others I mentioned before.¬†

As of yesterday, I’ve got the feeling that the blog which originally inspired me to start repurposedKATE, 100 things 100 days, is getting back on track after a little down-time and Christine’s consecutive confessions¬†about self-sabotage and procrastination. I’m glad to see that she’s continuing to post and I have a new (to me) power washer in the warehouse waiting for me to fire it up for the first time that gives me the idea that I’ll be getting my second wind any time now.

Bloggers I love that seem to be feeling the same malaise that’s hanging over my blog are both contributors whom I admire a great deal and delight in reading have both posted on this very subject, although with slightly different meaning and direction. The inspiration behind this post, in fact, comes directly from ReStitch Me’s near-anniversary post and the Not Messy Confession MrsJ published in the past week and a half or so.

In the earlier post of the two, ReStitch Me asked for approval for some time off to sort out some things so she can come back a to her blog with a greater sense of balance. She had me fooled for sure, because sure looks to me like she’s got it together. MrsJ, was equally frank in her post, confessing that she didn’t feel she had a significant contribution to make when so she posted from her personal life, just for the sake of posting something. I thought both entries were very admirable. I wanted to offer my supportive comments, but here I was… Not posting on my blog.

See what I mean about something being amiss in my corner of WordPress? How do I go about fixing this so I can get back to the purpose of this blog in the first place? I have an idea or two that I’m not quite ready to put out in the open yet, but if the situation doesn’t change soon, I’ll have little choice. In the meantime, I am hoping that someone who has a suggestion

for getting me back to posting and getting my flow flowing will offer it in the comments… I hope everyone who reads this has an idea and leaves a comment.

Have you had this problem? Did you solve it? How?