Contents Under Pressure

I have a one-year-old chihuahua named LB (“Lightning Bolt”–I’ll tell you that story another time) Wilbur III, Esquire. I adore LB to pieces and baby him way more than I should most of the time. Today, LB is being a moody little pain in the butt and growls and barks his head off at the whole family every time one of us so much as moves an inch. I have told him a dozen times or more to knock it off, but I might as well have been talking to a stump (a barking, growling stump), because when My Sweetheart came into the living room from the warehouse a little while ago LB went off like a freakin’ siren.

And so did I.

I got nose-to-nose with a (usually) sweet, little 4 pound dog and yelled my head off at him to stop it, Stop It, STOP IT! like an insane person. And I hurt the little guy’s feelings. Poor baby boy. I never even talk ugly to him, so he was totally unprepared for me to go off like that. I feel like a bad person for it.

The reason I lost my cool, I suppose, is the fact that I had been struggling over this post for–oh, I don’t know–close to an hour, maybe, and I had nothing to show for it at all. The reason I am, or was, stuck is I feel like I really have a lot to say here today and all of those thoughts are crushing up against each other trying to get out and building more and more pressure the more I try grab onto just one of those thoughts. My thought process has all the qualities of a warm, 2-liter bottle of Big Red soda that someone just dropped on the hot pavement. Not a good thing.

I was thinking about this post yesterday. The possibility that I would be blocked like I have been wasn’t even a consideration. In fact, I spent a lot of time thinking about this post and expected it to just flow right on through my fingers and into the internet then onto your screen almost effortlessly.  Just like I told you on Thursday that I was all fired up to kick the 4-day challenge meme in the patootie (yes, I said “patootie”), yesterday I was all fired up to tell you that the desk I had planned on moving out of the office for a complete surprise repurpose in another part of the warehouse had been given a stay of execution because I am not going to complete that project this week.

I know, I know… I am not doing so great with these challenges, am I? Not even a little bit.

The reason the desk is staying put is because poor prior planning promotes piss-poor performance and I had failed to take in the big picture when I posted the challenge set-up this week. Yesterday when I was ready to roll up my sleeves and get to clutter-busting the desk, I headed into the warehouse to clear the spot for the desk to start its new life as a major component in my new dressing/sewing room (construction pending). There’s no missing the big picture in the warehouse… It looked like this:

And there is no room there for my desk to find a new purpose…

So, I upgraded my challenge. This is the progress so far:

Wow! That pressure isn’t as strong as it was a little while ago. I think I will be able to get some more work done out in the warehouse before I make the next post.

Oh… And btw… I made up with my baby boy before I even made this post. I picked him up and held him close. he even rolled on his backand let me hold him like a baby and rub his tummy (a position in which he usually is pretty insecure staying for long) for as long as I wanted. But I didn’t kiss him on his cute little head, although I was quite tempted… LB does not being the recipient of kisses.


LB Wilbur III, Esquire

7 thoughts on “Contents Under Pressure

  1. Cute, LB. What a sweet boy. Perhaps he and our little chihuahua-dachshund mix, Eddie, could meet some time. No worries on the writers block nor the redo on the project. The post was great!

    • Yes, LB and Eddie should meet sometime. LB loves having playmates. The two chihuahuas responsible for his existence are in our household as well, but they don’t really play much with him and he’s lonely, I think, sometimes.

  2. LB is such a cutie! Kiddo was gushing at his photo. As for your post–I love it. Do you wanna know why? Because you’re being real. How boring would it be if you set out to do what you say you will and don’t have any problems or conflict? That’s not how life is. Thank you for sharing part of your life with us.

    • Thanks for the pep-talk, Mrs.J. I need those more often than I care to admit. I had an idea for today’s post when I logged on and your comments have cemented that idea for me, I think… Stay tuned.

  3. I often set HUGE goals for myself, and then when I don’t achieve them, get discouraged and do NOTHING. I think it’s awesome that you didn’t give up, but marched on and made progress! 🙂 Never, ever, ever, give up!

    • I am so, so, soooooo prone to the Do Nothing Syndrome! My absence from this blog for months is a testament to that. If I’m honest, I have to say my whole life is a testament to that. Thank you for letting me know that I’m not alone.

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